It's suck to pretend everything is gonna be alright. But in fact it's not at all.
It's suck to smile while cry inside.
It's suck to strenghten others while I need to be strenghten.
It's suck to explain things can't be explained by words.
It's suck to say Yes while No is the word I have to say.
It's suck to answer people's question while I do wanna forget thing they wanna know.
It's suck to trust others while I'm too often disappointed by them.
It's too hard to face the world when I feel I'm so nothing now.
It's not life I wanna be lived.
I wish I were a cat. When my life stucks in a mess, I could replace it with another eight lifes.
Whatsoever you're gonna say. In fact, I just wanna take myself away from my environment now.
This is the first time I do wanna live alone without anyone else, except my family.
This is the first time I don't wanna care of things happen around me.
This is the first time I blame myself for my life.
I feel staying in the lowest ground of my life. Even, I don't know what I'll be next 10 years. I have no fantasy.
Umi said that I have to keep dreaming although maybe I won't reach it. Because she believes that people can stay living because they keep dreaming. Yes, dreams make people's life technicolor. I have to.
But, this is the first time I wanna forget all my dreams and look for another simple one.
If you say I give up, yes, I give up. Then, what's the big deal!?
Don't make me feel so pity with your sympathy. I don't need that, I swear.
I know anything has been in the cards.
At last I say, A Velly Intewesting Blog.